Thank you! I haven’t liked her for 6 years haha. After we split up like when I was 13 (we were seeing each other twice when we were children). About, 3 years ago we started to get close, but I did not come to these feelings until mid last year when we had become more close. Sometimes I’m confused, we get a long like amazingly well, we’ve never have had an argument in the time we have known each other, maybe a few disagreements but non arguments. I don’t know but there’s something about this girl that makes me like this, that it makes me just vulnerable around her, and what’s confusing is the way she acts around me. Though she said I’m more like a brother several months ago, some moments there has been where I’ve questioned her feelings towards me, thinking she may feel the same way, but I’m not sure and too shy to confirm. I will get over this if anything doesn’t happen, and your advice doesn’t go unnoticed and I’ll take it and hopefully see a point of view of things, in time.

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I don't know why, but I seem to have incredible illusions of grandeur, as if people owe me shit, and I'm never in the wrong. I recognize this, but I still live like this. I lie to myself when I tell myself that I contribute anything useful to this world, because in reality, I don't. I lie to myself when I tell myself I have any chance of actually getting a job and being successful. I tell myself that I want to die, but I'm too pussy to kill myself and be done with it, because the thought of nothing scares me. I tell myself that I actually have a chance at being with the girl I like, but I know that's not going to happen. I keep telling myself that people like me, but like everything else I've built up in my shit-stain of an ego, it isn't true. Worst of all, I keep telling myself I'm going to change, and actually become a good person, but I've never acted on it. I could spend hours ranting and recognizing my downsides, of which there are a lot, but it won't change anything, because I know I'm not going to do shit about it.

I know that feeling and I think it all depends on the person and the situation your faced with. If it`s someone for example that you feel you have connected with and share a great bond but you feel you have these flirtation and love feelings building up inside you because you care for them so much sometimes it`s best not to risk that move. I remember back years ago in high school when this girl sat next to me in class. We got along well , we hit things off and I started to feeling something more for her and I kept saying to myself these feelings aren`t normal and that I was debating alot over in my head should I tell this girl how I really feel or should I just continue to let these feelings I have for her be a pipe dream and try to swallow these feelings up ?

The truth is in those moments I was in I made the mistake of telling her that I felt something more for her and that once that was put out there it kind of dampened and ruined that great friendship connection we once had but despite saying that you never really truly know how that other person feels about you unless your either really great with reading love signs or taking the risk upon yourself of finding out weather or not she has the same feelings building up or that it`s all just in your own dream world. From personal experience if you are in this situation or ever are faced with this situation which in time most of you will in the later stages of life , only risk those chances of making the jump to blow the steam off if you get the sense or feel that this girl wants someone in her life who can provide the goals she wants to achieve. Sometimes it`s just a case with being stealthy by finding out key information and taking an insight into her life on what thing she would like with a guy in a potential future relationship. Again though the risk meter is always gonna be high up on the chart but it`s within your hands weather you want to take that risk for a good or bad outcome.

Just days ago I revealed something massive and big that I had been bottling up for a full year only because I was faced with a tough situation in being to share this kind of news since I`m never one for sharing my personal private matters or lovelife with anyone. Doesn`t matter who it is I never have that confidence or courage in being able to do it since I always fear opinions and judgment from the world in terms of personal matters. But I kept debating it over and over again in my head and eventually came to the conclusion that it wasn`t healthy for me to keep bottling this up and that the class deserved to know. I was just afraid at what people would think since even when I got in a relationship with this girl way back ages ago I never really met or knew half of these people so I couldn`t really open to any of them from the times when my girlfriend was pregnant to the times when the baby was born.

It was difficult for me since I was faced with an unbalanced class of trust and I think at the end of the day I could only really feel comfortable opening up about this kind of thing to a good friend who I can confide and trust in. I do have a best friend like that with me in the class who feels like a brother to me but I felt even revealing a baby to him would be unfair of me to dump that much of pressure onto him but I feel confident , comfortable and confide in him when it comes to telling him personal stuff that I may not wan the entire class to know about. However I learnt that after revealing this finally that it boosted my confidence and courage for the future in being to share things things finally and I have to admit it does feel a weight off your shoulders when you can finally open up to someone and really talk about your feelings with them on what is bothering you. Remember people there`s always people out there and good friends you can confide in. Just make sure you only share stuff with those you can put your trust and faith into keep it confidential until your ready yo share it with the world.

I hate my fuckin life :')

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It feels like I'm paralyzed and I can't escape from the prison I'm living in. I'm naming the voices in my head, they keep on telling me to give in. But it's making me stronger, fight a little longer, I'm gonna bring me back to life. I won't be paralyzed.
-Against the Current
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uhhhhh, Sometimes I just kick the ice under the fridge.....

I care too much which sometimes makes me push. But I think I pushed too far this time and now I think I lose. The thought makes me hurt..so much. It's like something inside of me broke and there's no one to blame besides myself. Maybe it's a good thing. Because if I push everyone away they won't see how worthless I am. :(

I masturbate way too much