Ykno, I don't care if anyone ever reads this. It could be sitting here, covered in dust for the rest of eternity for all I care. What I do care about is all the memories I'll always have on EgN. It all started when I decided to hop back onto source after a few year long hiatus and play some source. I became a regular on the server and a user by the name of "EgN| Jixy" shot me a message saying that he thought I'd be a great addition to the clan. A few months later, I was part of the clan. Jixy, on the other hand.. left without so much as a goodbye. God, there's too much to fit here. I'm even tearing up a bit. I know I won't get it all but as one of my favorite poets, Shane Koyczan says, I remember how things felt. And in turn that makes me remember how things happened. So if you were brazen enough to make one with me, then you're in there somewhere. Whether it be a truth or dare kiss, or a simple act of kindness. I met Uchies, Bri, Melon, Kathy, Needy, NaCl, Rebooblar, Kharn, Roaxes, Central, Milk, Yiggles, Eagle, J-Dawg, Dyno, AJ, Solaire, and if I missed you then I'm sorry. Know that I remember you if you took the time to make yourself remembered. And last but most fucking certainly not least, ProfessorG. Most of you might not even know who that is. But I remember one fateful day on lego jail, a lone voice piping up in chat about his best friend rejecting him and feeling not very well and genuinely hurting so I reached out to him we talked for a bit, and I recommended him to join the clan as Jixy had done to me and let me tell you, friends i knew not how significant that simple act of kindness would be as i find myself now with a brother a friend who would have trouble putting distance between the two of us because I would be damned before I let him get away. god, i'm bawling like a fucking idiot so many memories. so many emotions. so many nights playing drunken truth or dare on tinychat. so many days and nights spent crying over people. flirting, laughing, jealousy, movies nights, karaoke that basically 4 people cared to show up to and it didnt matter because us four had fun and made memories. so many connections. so many friends. sure, there were arguments. sure, there was bickering. but it wouldnt be human without those things. if we had a community without a few outliers or arguments would it really be human and at the end of it all im so glad to have been here.
goodbye, egn. you lived a good life. /clan
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